Yes! Three days until Christmas! It doesn't feel like it though. Yikes. I feel like I'm running out of time with people, but honestly I've only been here a week and leave exactly a month from today. Soooo. That's actually a really long time. I'm happy to be home, but it did take some readjusting. It's awfully boring here, so when my friendsies are off doing whatever they enjoy doing (aka work) then I'm pretty much sol. It's not easy to entertain yourself here.
So what do I wanna talk about? Well I suppose I can talk about a little epiphany I had yesterday. See, two of my best friends have guys in their life. This makes me really happy because both of them are happier than I've maybe ever seen them. Plus they're both really adorable about it. I was talking to Katie about this, and we both had a breakdown because we feel like we're getting old so quickly. I know it sounds ridiculous for a 20 and 21 year old to say that, but Katie turns 22 in April and it sounds so much older that 21, doesn't it? It's like we have to be real adults. We'll be college graduates in a year and a half, and then we're both planning to get our master's. She'll be 24 when she gets hers, and I'll be 25. TWENTY-FIVE. Now, this sounds like a great age and all, but what about my life? I may seem like a jaded man-hater sometimes, but I do want to get married, and not sooner than 25, but...well, it's hard to explain. I just don't want all the important things in life to slip away, you know? I admit that I want it all: an amazing career, a wonderful husband and kids in my 30's, and I just hope that I can achieve all that once I get out of school. I don't need to worry. I know. But the truth is that's what I do.
Aaaaand now that you see that I'm absolutely crazy...I'm going to go get ready to see my dear friend Mac who just got back today from Basic.
Peace,
Bree
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Almost Christmas
Thank God it's almost Christmas.
My roomie and I made the mistake of going to Rockefeller Center last night. Let's all be glad that Bree and Jamila aren't in prison for killing people today. SOOOOO many people. We were naive to not even think that it would be like that. We couldn't even walk. Now, I never like being crowded by people, and I just like to speed walk and get places, but last night I noticed that I was particularly on edge. So I'm thankful I get to go home soon. It will let me slow down, and de-stress. I'm so high strung here; I need to get out of the city for a while. Don't get me wrong. I ADORE it here, and will miss it dearly while I'm in Kalispell. But everyone needs a break every now and then.
I also need to get away from the people here. Like, my friends and stuff. I'm not angry or upset with them, nor am I tired of them. In fact, it's mostly just one person who I have to leave and clear my head so I can figure out how I'm going to deal with him. This is hard shit right here.
I'm most excited to see my friends back home. My life isn't complete without Sasha, and I have been ready since the day I left to get back to her. She's a huge part of what's keeping my heart in Montana. What you have to understand is that Sash and I are like sisters. She's basically part of the family. We do everything together. Example: It's 12:30 at night, I text Sasha, "I want cake. Walmart?" Sasha text Bree, "I'll be right over." We live across the street from each other. We hate going places alone, and we always had each other to tag along, but now we're over 2,000 miles apart. Imagine how hard that has been on us. Truthfully, we're pretty much the same person in two different bodies, the only big difference is that she's a hopeless romantic where as I am somehow quite jaded and care more about my career than finding my "true love" right now. Plus I just don't trust guys. They're teases and I want to punch them...but not always. And never my gay boys because I love them. I can have a soft spot for guys, but they really have to prove themselves to me. I'm a lot to handle because of my independence, and sassiness, and intensity...I think I have a mindset of a guy and that scares them. But that's also how I weed them out; if they can't handle me now, NEXT. haha. I don't need them, I'm my own person, and I'm proud of that fact.
Anyway, going back to going home...I'm also excited to see all my other friends-Katiekins, and Jackie, and Aaron, and Shaneypops, and Mac too! Mac just got out of Basic for the Airforce, and I'm very excited to see him. My friends are soooo important to me. They know that. I'll love them until the day I die.
I'm also excited to see my family. I miss them a lot, and I can't wait to spend Christmas with them. It's probably my favorite day of the year because my entire family gets together and we're all happy. Most of the time. haha. I just can't wait to hug them all.
So that's my "I can't wait to go home" blog. haha. But, really...it'll be sooooo nice. :)
Peace,
Bree
My roomie and I made the mistake of going to Rockefeller Center last night. Let's all be glad that Bree and Jamila aren't in prison for killing people today. SOOOOO many people. We were naive to not even think that it would be like that. We couldn't even walk. Now, I never like being crowded by people, and I just like to speed walk and get places, but last night I noticed that I was particularly on edge. So I'm thankful I get to go home soon. It will let me slow down, and de-stress. I'm so high strung here; I need to get out of the city for a while. Don't get me wrong. I ADORE it here, and will miss it dearly while I'm in Kalispell. But everyone needs a break every now and then.
I also need to get away from the people here. Like, my friends and stuff. I'm not angry or upset with them, nor am I tired of them. In fact, it's mostly just one person who I have to leave and clear my head so I can figure out how I'm going to deal with him. This is hard shit right here.
I'm most excited to see my friends back home. My life isn't complete without Sasha, and I have been ready since the day I left to get back to her. She's a huge part of what's keeping my heart in Montana. What you have to understand is that Sash and I are like sisters. She's basically part of the family. We do everything together. Example: It's 12:30 at night, I text Sasha, "I want cake. Walmart?" Sasha text Bree, "I'll be right over." We live across the street from each other. We hate going places alone, and we always had each other to tag along, but now we're over 2,000 miles apart. Imagine how hard that has been on us. Truthfully, we're pretty much the same person in two different bodies, the only big difference is that she's a hopeless romantic where as I am somehow quite jaded and care more about my career than finding my "true love" right now. Plus I just don't trust guys. They're teases and I want to punch them...but not always. And never my gay boys because I love them. I can have a soft spot for guys, but they really have to prove themselves to me. I'm a lot to handle because of my independence, and sassiness, and intensity...I think I have a mindset of a guy and that scares them. But that's also how I weed them out; if they can't handle me now, NEXT. haha. I don't need them, I'm my own person, and I'm proud of that fact.
Anyway, going back to going home...I'm also excited to see all my other friends-Katiekins, and Jackie, and Aaron, and Shaneypops, and Mac too! Mac just got out of Basic for the Airforce, and I'm very excited to see him. My friends are soooo important to me. They know that. I'll love them until the day I die.
I'm also excited to see my family. I miss them a lot, and I can't wait to spend Christmas with them. It's probably my favorite day of the year because my entire family gets together and we're all happy. Most of the time. haha. I just can't wait to hug them all.
So that's my "I can't wait to go home" blog. haha. But, really...it'll be sooooo nice. :)
Peace,
Bree
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Beginning of Diciembre!
Happy December!
Only 23 days until Christmas and 19 until I go home! Yay! So bombing excited.
I may or may not have made up that expression, but I'm gonna stick with it and make it popular...but of course, do not say it in an airport or in high security areas.
In fact...I am probably now going to be placed on a terrorist watch list.
Aaaaanyway.
I made a pretty big decision today that I am very excited about. In fact, I nearly cried. You see, though I have known I wanted to go into theatre since I was a sophomore in high school, I haven't ever really been sure what area exactly I wanted to go into. I decided a while ago that I would become an artistic director some time in my life, probably after years of auditioning and acting. My main goal is to open up my own theatre some day, then I realized "why don't I not, and get on that sooner? I looked into what it takes to become an artistic director, and I got very excited because it sounded,truly, like the perfect job for me. I'm an excellent planner-it's impossible for me not to plan, so there's that. Then I would get to have control, and I would be able to make decisions. I would also be involved creatively as well, and get my hands into that stuff. Then once I open my own theatre I'd be able to do whatever I want-including design, directing and acting when if I wanted to.
So my plan now is to go to graduate school and get my masters in theatre management. I've started researching schools, and I think I'll probably stay in the city. I love it here, and there's unlimited amount of possibilities here. I am open to other options though, but probably only in California or other states here in the North East.
So that's what I'm so hyped about today. I'm ready to embark on my life. (also, I'd really like to get out of student housing and get my own place asap, but that's another story.)
As a reminder, I'm still doing my 30 Days 'Til Christmas Christmas Song spectacular. Tomorrow is Day 8, and I think you definitely need to check it out! I'd love feedback!
Peace,
Bree
Only 23 days until Christmas and 19 until I go home! Yay! So bombing excited.
I may or may not have made up that expression, but I'm gonna stick with it and make it popular...but of course, do not say it in an airport or in high security areas.
In fact...I am probably now going to be placed on a terrorist watch list.
Aaaaanyway.
I made a pretty big decision today that I am very excited about. In fact, I nearly cried. You see, though I have known I wanted to go into theatre since I was a sophomore in high school, I haven't ever really been sure what area exactly I wanted to go into. I decided a while ago that I would become an artistic director some time in my life, probably after years of auditioning and acting. My main goal is to open up my own theatre some day, then I realized "why don't I not, and get on that sooner? I looked into what it takes to become an artistic director, and I got very excited because it sounded,truly, like the perfect job for me. I'm an excellent planner-it's impossible for me not to plan, so there's that. Then I would get to have control, and I would be able to make decisions. I would also be involved creatively as well, and get my hands into that stuff. Then once I open my own theatre I'd be able to do whatever I want-including design, directing and acting when if I wanted to.
So my plan now is to go to graduate school and get my masters in theatre management. I've started researching schools, and I think I'll probably stay in the city. I love it here, and there's unlimited amount of possibilities here. I am open to other options though, but probably only in California or other states here in the North East.
So that's what I'm so hyped about today. I'm ready to embark on my life. (also, I'd really like to get out of student housing and get my own place asap, but that's another story.)
As a reminder, I'm still doing my 30 Days 'Til Christmas Christmas Song spectacular. Tomorrow is Day 8, and I think you definitely need to check it out! I'd love feedback!
Peace,
Bree
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