VDay

Today is Valentine's Day, but this fact does not matter to me. Haha. I'm single, so I'm not celebrating, but I'm not one of those single people who are bitter buffaloes about it. So many people hate on Valentine's Day because they're all jealous of people who are getting some tonight, but I don't really care. I'm comfortable in my singledom. I'm very focused on what I'm doing with my life that I'm not searching for a man. If one just popped into my life, that would be cool, but I'm not desperate for a relationship. I've never been that kind of girl. Independent woman. *cue Destiny's Child*

So 21 is going pretty damn well. I'm no alcoholic, but I have my bottle of vodka in the freezer that I turn to when I'm in the mood. I decided to try a little some in my chocolate milk. I know this probably sounds disgusting, but you don't put enough vodka in to taste it. Just enough. There's actually a real drink called Adult Chocolate Milk which uses vodka, so there. I found things online that said to use kahlua or bailey's, but those aren't in my freezer, so that makes them out of the question for now.

I'm going to be home for spring break in 3.5 weeks, which happens to fall on st. patty's day. I'm just saying that I am uber excited to celebrate this holiday with my besties. In bars. Because we're 21. haha. I feel like an adult. And it's awesome. Just being able to go to dinner and being able to order a drink is nice. haha.

So I suppose that's it right now. I'm gonna eat some chocolate and chill with the roomie. Maybe watch some Dinosaurs. Just a normal night. :)

Peace,
Bree

I'm posting this during class because I'm awesome like that. It's hitting me that I actually have to get down to business and do homework now. Boooooo. Haha. I have dropped and added several classes since last week trying to find a schedule that I wouldn't want to shoot myself in the face because of it. I think I'm good now. You just have to know when you're actually going to invest yourself in something.

So my birthday were amazing. Sash, Shane and Brystal got here late because of a snowstorm here on the east coast, so they ended up driving from Chicago. Crazy shit. But they got here on the 27th, which was my birthday. So once they got here we went to dinner at Maracas, where I got my free sombrero, cake, beads and shot of tequila. what a blast. Haha
Most of the weekend consisted of showing them the city, and making sure they had a great time. It was fantastic. I wish they didn't have to leave. I wanted them to stay forever. Shane wanted to. :)

So that was a basic overview of my weekend, but I apparently have to participate, so I gotta go.

Peace,
Bree

Lovefest

Three days until I'm 21! Woot woot! Very excited.

So I was just sitting here in my room, after a long day of classes, and I realized how much I truly love Sasha. I mean, I couldn't possibly ask for a better best friend. It sound extremely cheesy, but it's the honest-to-God truth. We're very much alike, but we're also different enough to make us not the same person. Because truth-be-told, I couldn't be friends with someone like me...I'm too much of a drama queen. An attention whore, if you'd prefer. But not so much that it's ridiculous and annoying (I don't think?). Anyway. Sasha balances me out, because she's level-headed and the nice one. Hahaha. And I balance her right back. I think that if you were to label us, she'd be the angel on your shoulder, and I'd be the devil...but not completely, because Sash has her bitch-moments, and I'm typically a fairly nice person. The thing is though that I'm more vocal about my dislikes. That's all. It's called honesty, people. haha. No. I really am I nice person, and I do care about people's feelings, but some people just really piss me off. But note, that they really had to be effing stupid to do so in the first place. Aaaaanyway. Back to Sash. I'd say that one of the most hardest things to deal with is living 2,000+ miles away from her. Seriously, when Sash and I are in the same town, we do EVERYTHING together. Oh you invited me here? Guess who else is coming. I mean, we share all our friends, so it's cool and all, plus they probably like her better. haha. It's hard to have to go to the grocery store by myself, or wherever else. Sash would always go with me. That's how we roll. Seriously. I mean, I'm a pretty independent person, except for Sash. And I feel like she's the same way. Plus I like the fact that we both make up shit, and the other just goes along with it. For example, I always make references to my boyfriend, Shaun White. She simply accepts this as reality. No one else would do that. And I do the same for her. That's why we're perfect together. haha.

So that's my lovefest.

How about some of my favorite music of the moment?

Sasha got me into Bruno Mars...Marry You and The Lazy Song are my favorite!!!!!



Aaaand...ok...totally old news, but Fuck You is my jam! It always puts me in a good mood.



Pink's Fuckin'Perfect is just that. The video is crazy. But crazy good.



I think I'm in love with Jessie James' Boys in the Summer for a couple of reasons. One, it's great to dance to and makes you so happy, and two, I miss summertime.



And of course, there's always April Smith!!!!





Ok. I got carried away. I'm sorry. But hey, you know. It's music. You're gonna listen to some anyway. haha

Peace,
Bree

Not alcoholics, just 21-year-olds

Saturday marks the end of my Christmas vaca, which I'm both ok with and sad about. I'm excited to get back to the city-Kalispell leaves little room for me to play, but I'm sad to be leaving my friends and family again. It's something I'll just have to get used to since I don't see myself leaving New York anytime soon...ever. At least I have something to look forward to one week from this Wednesday and that would be Sash, Shane and Brystal coming to the city to celebrate my birthday!!!! Twenty-first on the 27th! I'm so ready to be legal. I'm the baby around here and it sucks like a bitch. And when I come home for the summer, we'll dominate the bar scene...but not to the point of alcoholism, of course. Actually. I'm thinking of getting a job as a bartender for a summer job, so we'll actually see about that. Haha.

So back to my birthday...I'm excited to celebrate it with so many great people. While they're here...well, there, we're going to sight-see since it's all of their first times in New York (yay cherry popping), and we'll be seeing some shows, and a lot of bars. Haha. Go big or go home, right? We're all very excited that bars don't close 'til 4 there, unlike here, which is 2. But again, not alcoholics.

I can't wait for them to meet my roomies, and other friends, and vice versa. Everyone has heard so much about each other though, they probably feel like they already do know each other.

Anyway, I'm beyond excited, and I'll have to share all the details with you in two weeks!

Until then...
Peace,
Bree

Almost Almost Christmas

Yes! Three days until Christmas! It doesn't feel like it though. Yikes. I feel like I'm running out of time with people, but honestly I've only been here a week and leave exactly a month from today. Soooo. That's actually a really long time. I'm happy to be home, but it did take some readjusting. It's awfully boring here, so when my friendsies are off doing whatever they enjoy doing (aka work) then I'm pretty much sol. It's not easy to entertain yourself here.

So what do I wanna talk about? Well I suppose I can talk about a little epiphany I had yesterday. See, two of my best friends have guys in their life. This makes me really happy because both of them are happier than I've maybe ever seen them. Plus they're both really adorable about it. I was talking to Katie about this, and we both had a breakdown because we feel like we're getting old so quickly. I know it sounds ridiculous for a 20 and 21 year old to say that, but Katie turns 22 in April and it sounds so much older that 21, doesn't it? It's like we have to be real adults. We'll be college graduates in a year and a half, and then we're both planning to get our master's. She'll be 24 when she gets hers, and I'll be 25. TWENTY-FIVE. Now, this sounds like a great age and all, but what about my life? I may seem like a jaded man-hater sometimes, but I do want to get married, and not sooner than 25, but...well, it's hard to explain. I just don't want all the important things in life to slip away, you know? I admit that I want it all: an amazing career, a wonderful husband and kids in my 30's, and I just hope that I can achieve all that once I get out of school. I don't need to worry. I know. But the truth is that's what I do.

Aaaaand now that you see that I'm absolutely crazy...I'm going to go get ready to see my dear friend Mac who just got back today from Basic.

Peace,
Bree

Almost Christmas

Thank God it's almost Christmas.
My roomie and I made the mistake of going to Rockefeller Center last night. Let's all be glad that Bree and Jamila aren't in prison for killing people today. SOOOOO many people. We were naive to not even think that it would be like that. We couldn't even walk. Now, I never like being crowded by people, and I just like to speed walk and get places, but last night I noticed that I was particularly on edge. So I'm thankful I get to go home soon. It will let me slow down, and de-stress. I'm so high strung here; I need to get out of the city for a while. Don't get me wrong. I ADORE it here, and will miss it dearly while I'm in Kalispell. But everyone needs a break every now and then.

I also need to get away from the people here. Like, my friends and stuff. I'm not angry or upset with them, nor am I tired of them. In fact, it's mostly just one person who I have to leave and clear my head so I can figure out how I'm going to deal with him. This is hard shit right here.

I'm most excited to see my friends back home. My life isn't complete without Sasha, and I have been ready since the day I left to get back to her. She's a huge part of what's keeping my heart in Montana. What you have to understand is that Sash and I are like sisters. She's basically part of the family. We do everything together. Example: It's 12:30 at night, I text Sasha, "I want cake. Walmart?" Sasha text Bree, "I'll be right over." We live across the street from each other. We hate going places alone, and we always had each other to tag along, but now we're over 2,000 miles apart. Imagine how hard that has been on us. Truthfully, we're pretty much the same person in two different bodies, the only big difference is that she's a hopeless romantic where as I am somehow quite jaded and care more about my career than finding my "true love" right now. Plus I just don't trust guys. They're teases and I want to punch them...but not always. And never my gay boys because I love them. I can have a soft spot for guys, but they really have to prove themselves to me. I'm a lot to handle because of my independence, and sassiness, and intensity...I think I have a mindset of a guy and that scares them. But that's also how I weed them out; if they can't handle me now, NEXT. haha. I don't need them, I'm my own person, and I'm proud of that fact.

Anyway, going back to going home...I'm also excited to see all my other friends-Katiekins, and Jackie, and Aaron, and Shaneypops, and Mac too! Mac just got out of Basic for the Airforce, and I'm very excited to see him. My friends are soooo important to me. They know that. I'll love them until the day I die.

I'm also excited to see my family. I miss them a lot, and I can't wait to spend Christmas with them. It's probably my favorite day of the year because my entire family gets together and we're all happy. Most of the time. haha. I just can't wait to hug them all.

So that's my "I can't wait to go home" blog. haha. But, really...it'll be sooooo nice. :)

Peace,
Bree

Beginning of Diciembre!

Happy December!

Only 23 days until Christmas and 19 until I go home! Yay! So bombing excited.
I may or may not have made up that expression, but I'm gonna stick with it and make it popular...but of course, do not say it in an airport or in high security areas.
In fact...I am probably now going to be placed on a terrorist watch list.
Aaaaanyway.

I made a pretty big decision today that I am very excited about. In fact, I nearly cried. You see, though I have known I wanted to go into theatre since I was a sophomore in high school, I haven't ever really been sure what area exactly I wanted to go into. I decided a while ago that I would become an artistic director some time in my life, probably after years of auditioning and acting. My main goal is to open up my own theatre some day, then I realized "why don't I not, and get on that sooner? I looked into what it takes to become an artistic director, and I got very excited because it sounded,truly, like the perfect job for me. I'm an excellent planner-it's impossible for me not to plan, so there's that. Then I would get to have control, and I would be able to make decisions. I would also be involved creatively as well, and get my hands into that stuff. Then once I open my own theatre I'd be able to do whatever I want-including design, directing and acting when if I wanted to.

So my plan now is to go to graduate school and get my masters in theatre management. I've started researching schools, and I think I'll probably stay in the city. I love it here, and there's unlimited amount of possibilities here. I am open to other options though, but probably only in California or other states here in the North East.

So that's what I'm so hyped about today. I'm ready to embark on my life. (also, I'd really like to get out of student housing and get my own place asap, but that's another story.)

As a reminder, I'm still doing my 30 Days 'Til Christmas Christmas Song spectacular. Tomorrow is Day 8, and I think you definitely need to check it out! I'd love feedback!

Peace,
Bree